When everything just turns around and hits you in the face. One by one, slap by slap. You are thrown out of your body just to see yourself break apart..into nothing..absolutely nothing. You believed it was all gone but you’re wrong. It’s back but it’s worse than ever. You want to escape. Find a way to end the pain. To get rid of it all. The only thing you think of is that permanent solution. Beat your demons by going to sleep and never waking up or even better waking up in another life. A life without pain. A life were love overcomes all. You won’t be scared. Of a past that never fails to haunt you. Of losing the only hope you had to satisfy another. Things will be better. No more disappointments or disappointing others. You won’t hurt those you love. You no longer will be a monster. You’ll be free. I want to be free. Live a new life without fear. Be everything I couldn’t be here. No matter how much I try everything is still wrong. I’m weak. The weak don’t get anything but despair. I need to be strong..